Monday, December 22, 2008

Anticipation

Have you ever received bad news that you wanted to blog about yet putting the words in writing for some reason made it seem more real than you would like? I know it may seem silly but for a little over a week now I have been really struggling with this. Many of you, especially my followers are twitter, knew Gab went in for her big test on the 11th of December and have been waiting for me to post the results. I have briefly posted tweets about what happened and even took the time to upload the video from that day and put together a vlog... just not post it. I have such a hard time putting myself out there, so to say. Writing my feelings on such a sensitive subject makes me feel somewhat vulnerable and I DON'T like to feel vulnerable ;) To better explain myself, I guess I am one of those people who would rather hold it in than feel as if I am throwing a self pity party, no matter what the circumstance is. I am sure this is all my own perspective on the situation and probably the real truth behind my subconscious is that I just don't want to type out the results or talk about it with many people b/c DANG IT, I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT! Putting it all out there is allowing myself to admit it is real. I remember last year when Gab went into the hospital to have brain surgery I created an awesome site for her. I sent it out to everyone who was in contact with us including family, friends, co-workers and they each sent it on to someone else. There were so many people commenting and reading her story it was great. We received plenty of comments sending along prayers and people saying they were touched by reading Gab's progress and seeing all the photos I would post. Shortly after she started having problems in the hospital I quit updating. I was going through so much that writing about it at that time was not something I could do. It was depressing enough to watch my daughter go through all of it but to put it into words was even more difficult. I look back now and wish I would have continued with her site. Many people throughout the past year have asked how things went and what happened. Family and friends miss seeing all the photos... So now even though it has been over a week, I am determined to pull my head out of the sand, try to fight the depression, have a little faith and publish this post!

I also won an awesome FLIP video camera from Katja, in one of her blog giveaways, to whom I owe a vlog post. So here you go with my very first vlog!


{Without further adieu}
Gabby's video update.



For those of you with a million questions... I know the video was vague for someone who hasn't known us for a year or doesn't know the whole story behind Gab's surgery. I will do my best to sum it up. Gab had a stroke during utero and therefore was born with Cerebral Palsy. At nine months old she started having seizures. With the help of steroid shots, seizure medication and lots of therapy we had been able to keep her healthy and active until she was about 4. Her seizures at this point became monthly, weekly and then daily. Since she had brain damage caused by the stroke her epilepsy was only going to get worse. The Neurosurgeon informed me we had to do surgery to remove the abnormal brain tissue in order to stop the seizures, the convulsions were lasting 20 minutes each time and she could no longer even go to school. The surgeon believed if we did not remove the left side of the brain (which was the damaged part) then eventually her right side (good side) would suffer stress and start having seizures as well. Once he approached me about surgery it was scheduled within two weeks. Since we did not know if she would walk or talk after surgery the Make-a-Wish foundation sent us to Disney World for the first week before surgery. She was a little over 5 1/2 years old when she had the first brain surgery. The whole process did not go as the doctor wished and she developed infections in the blood stream which kept us in the hospital for over four months straight. The end result was the removal of the left side of her brain. We were not able to have an EEG to see the results of surgery until December 11th of this year, one year after her final surgery. They had to allow the brain a year to heal to show an accurate EEG test without the stress in the brain waves from surgery. She has continued seizure medication everyday since surgery. During this recent test we hoped for the best results, a completely clear EEG so we could stop meds. Unfortunately what the doctor was trying to avoid from happening, happened. The seizure activity has now moved to the right side of the brain. There is nothing left for the doctors to do except continue her on medication. Since she is now only 6 years old and already tried many medications we can only hope for the best. She only has half a brain left and really can't afford for the seizures to cause much more damage. Within the past month I have seen at least two episodes of seizure activity which really scares me. This test meant a lot to us and the end results were supposed to make us feel like everything we have been through was worth it. It was supposed to be a sign that things were getting better and hopefully one day soon I could work outside of the home again and stop all the crazy appointments that we have weekly. Apparently that is not in the cards for me at this time. I am trying to keep up my spirits and hope that my working from home will perk up to become more successful soon. Did you hear about Tom Cruise's daughter Suri and her Ladybug Shoes on Oprah? Well reading the post on Katja's blog has really given me hope that something BIG can happen to a work from home mother who blogs.

Happy Holidays!


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Confession ~ Seal Album Giveaway


{Confession}
In 1994 I was 12 years old and
jammed to Seal's hit song at the time,
Kiss From a Rose.
Yes, I owned that baby on cassette tape!
Probably where I recorded it
off the radio thinking I was so cool.


When I was told Seal's new album was being released November 11th I was excited to hear it.



{Confession}
I have been overly stressed lately.
I haven't had the chance to write blog
posts lately or even read my favorites.
I recently wrote an updated post to try and
catch everyone up. I am on overload.


Once I received Seal's Soul album, the kids and I played it in the living room stereo. We danced, sang and smiled. Since then we have listened to it while driving and singing along. After dropping the kids off at school, I listen to it alone and relax. A Change is Gonna Come is very soothing. Taking a moment to be stress-free has not happened around here lately. ~Thank you Seal!

My title says a giveaway... so here it is! I have the opportunity to giveaway a copy of Seal's new album on CD. How exciting? In perfect time for the holidays too, when you need to relax the most!

But wait... that's not all!
(always wanted to say that, so infomercial)

I also get to giveaway (something I don't even own myself) mini-retro iPod speakers thanks to Delight.com!

How cool are these?! They will make a perfect stocking stuffer for my daughter.

Think of Delight.com as a unique boutique that stocks the perfect gift for everyone on your list. Delight features eco-friendly tote bags, gadgets for guys, kitchen gear that is smart and saves time, travel essentials, one-of-a-kind baby gifts, stocking stuffers for holiday gift shopping and unique jewelry and décor accessories with most under $50.

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{Confession}
Even though I want to believe I can do
it all, I can't. My load has to be lightened.
Therefore, for me, A Change is Gonna Come.

Now for ways to enter contest...!

1 entry} post a comment here telling me what it is you do for your down time (read, listen to music, watch TV?)

1 entry} tweet or blog about this giveaway and help promote Seal's new album release then re-comment here with a link to your post

1 entry} follow my blog to be the first to hear all the upcoming giveaways and re-comment letting me know you did

Contest ends Monday, December 8th and the winner will be randomly picked using random.org

Special thanks goes out to Arianne over at To Think is To Create and One2One Network along with Delight.com for making this great giveaway happen!

To enter more gift fest giveaways check this out.

Random Sequence Generator
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Timestamp: 2008-12-12 15:10:23 UTC

WINNER is Katy Wheaton! Katy posted the second comment which as you see in my random.org results the 2 comment was picked! CONGRATS Katy!
Since Katy never responded I went down the list, the second winner had no contact info listed and no blogger profile so I went on to the third where I found our winner!
Congrats to SHANNAN POWELL!

Monday, December 1, 2008

Holiday Shopping Guide Giveaway


In celebration of Cyber Monday and the Holiday Gift Guide Virtual Party going on I am hosting a giveaway on my blog.

I am excited to giveaway a copy of the new book The Problem With Women is Men by Charles Orlando.

I can't wait to get my own personal copy of this book to read. I just love the title in itself and know it will be a great read!

This book would be a wonderful gift for any woman on your holiday gift lists along with all the curious men wanting to know what it's all about.


Don't want to wait to win a free copy? Get yours on Amazon today!





Contest starts right away and ends on Sunday, December 7, 2008. In plenty of time to receive the book for Christmas giving.
Entry details:

1 entry} Leave a comment telling me who you would like the book for (yourself or gift).

1 entry} tweet about this giveaway along with link to blog post and come back to leave second comment with link to your tweet

1 entry} blog about giveaway or link within blog post to this original blog post and come back to comment with link to your post

Don't forget to follow my blog to stay tuned for up coming giveaways and reviews!

Random.org will be used to determine the winner Monday morning!

Good luck readers and Happy Holidays!

CONGRATULATIONS TO BRANDI! Random.org pulled the number Brandi's tweet stood for making her the winner of the Problem with Women is Men.

For more gift fest giveaways enter here.

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